‘I am a total phony’

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• Hoda kotb recalled the moment she kew her relations with ex-fiancé joel schiffman was over in her new book, Jump and Find Joy

• The moment came as kotb was at a retreat and summone the “court” to share a difficult truth about herself as a partner

• Kotb also revealed that is now seeking a “Soul Connection” in a New Interviews About the Book

Hoda kotb is opening up about the end of the relationship – and the “epiphany” that preceded it.

In an excerpt of her new book, Jump and Find JoyShared with Today.comThe Former TV Personality, 61, SHED MORE LIGHT ON CHEN-AND WHY-she decided to end her romantic relationship with ex-fiancé Joel Schiffman.

Kotb Announched The End of Her Engagement to Schiffman, 67, On Today In 2022 after they had ben together for seven years, and the pair are now friends and co-parts to daughters Haley, 8, and Hope, 6.

Kotb reccaralled in the excerpt that after Attending a week-long retreat at the Hoffman InstituteWhich Aims to Help People “Make Significant Positive Changes” in their lives, she felt like “Everything HAD shifted” – Including Her Relationship with Schiffman Today.com.

“Our ‘US’ Felt Different,” The Mom of Two Wrote in Jump and Find Joy.

While standing before the Hoffman Institute Leaders and Her Fellow Participants, Kotb Recalled in the Excerpt, she explained why she decides to the retreat – and made a difficult admisision relating to her relationship.

“I knew i coulud say that i wanted to better myself or something vague like.

“They deserved the Same From Me. So, i Said it. I Told the Truth About Why I Had Come,” Kotb Continued. “‘I am a total phony in my relationships,’ i said. ‘I’m a contender.’”

In an interview with Today.com About the New Book, Kotb Revealed what she meant by “contenders,” telling the outlet, “I think you know that it is – i would good – but you think to your not deepen.”

“SO,” she Said, “You Continue Along (in) the Relationship, and I think the Truth of the Matter is SomeSetime you have to say to your youysel, like, ‘i feel’m an optimistic.’ And so, be you’re an optimistic, you have want to make things work, and the dooms, things. ”

Break Today Alum also said that the moment she made that admision was “one of the best ten-second deciss” of her life, and elaborated on the current status of her relationship with schiffman.

“I love Joel then, and i love Joel Now,” The Jump and Find Joy Author Told Today.com. “I JUST HAD TO REMIND MYSELF THAT IT WAS A DIFFERENT KIND OF LOVE.”

“You Can Still Love and Admire Someone and Not Want to be in a Relationship, A Long-Term Relationship That Way, Personal Relationship,” Said Kotb.

That moment, she added, “Just was an epiphany for me, and it took courage for me to say it. And when i did, i felt like, ‘ok, there is.’ ”

“I Think We’ve Always Been Connected and Will Always Be Connected for Many Reasons,” The Former TV Personality Told the outlet of her ex-Fiancé. “We will co-parent in a Beautiful Way, but i also Think Our ‘US’ is more of a, like, we’re dear friends now.

Added Kotb: “We were laughing the other day just in hysterics, and I feel like it is the rights of us to have.”

In the Same interview, the mom of two also revealed that while while she is not active looking for a partner, she is “longing for a soul Connection.

She is “convinced” that there is “someone meant for with out,” she told the website. “I have no dubt in my mind that it exists and that person is out there.”

Schiffman proposed to kotb in 2019 and the couple adopted daughter haley in 2017 and hope in 2019. Year … on Our New Path As Loving Parents to Our Adorable, Delightful Children, and As Friends. “

Discussing The Exes’ CO-PARENTING STRATEGY With People after the Split, the Today Alum explained, “he’ll have a saturday, and i’ll will the sunday. We switch each weeks.

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Jump and Find Joy is available now wherever books are sold.

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